Thursday, April 22, 2004

Fear of Fear

I often wonder what my life would be like if I had 1: no fear of failure and 2: all the time in the world. Hell, what would anyone's life be like if those two pieces were available to each of us. There are times when 1 gnaws at me. I can do a lot of different things, but all to often I let self doubts fill my head. If I have a great idea I pummel it with a million holes as to why it's not all that great. I'm analytical, sure, but isn't that sort of behavior self defeating? Am I only fearing failure when I do it? At the rare times when I think I can do it all, I figure that 2 comes in to play. Yeah, I CAN do it all, but crap, I don't have time to do it all or learn it all or see it all. Life is far too short and unfortunately, 1 keeps it far too limited. Just thinkin' too much, methinks.